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A new journal.  For new changes and new beginnings.  I hope...

My little journal is friends only...at least, most of it is.  The less personal and more humorous things will be made public.  Please don't add me unless you comment here first.  I don't like seeing strange names on my friends list.  No I don't >[


Also, I couldn't really print "no Portuguese" on my banner,  but uh, yea.  No Portuguese...

I have such things to say, but my feelings are all over the place, so I am doing this!! So easy-I've already watched 100 movies this year, for sure. Starting over from last week, though!! Join me? :3

1. Deathproof-(rewatch) 9/10
2. Hangover-9/10
3. Hatchet-6/10
4. Welcome to the Jungle-5/10
5. Mean Girls-8/10
6. UP-10/10
7. Across the Universe-10/10
8. Hellraiser-7/10
9. Land of the Lost-5/10
10. Ghost Busters 2-(rewatch) 8/10
11. May-(rewatch) 6/10
12.The Taking of Pelham 123-5/10
13. Kill Bill-(rewatch)-awesome.
14. Transformers: Rise of the Fallen
15. The Hills Have Eyes 2-(rewatch)
16. Bad Reputation-2/10
17. The Devil's Rejects-(rewatch)-Ehhhh.
18. Knocked Up-(rewatch)-Not bad. Pretty funny.
19. Yes Man-Lame. Jim Carey's creepiest role yet. LAME.
20. I Spit On Your Grave (Day of the Woman)-Very empowering in such a way. Quite good.
21.The Rocky Horror Picture Show-(rewatch)-The best pointless, confusing movie made.
22. The Ammityville Horror (remake)-Psh.
23.I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry-(rewatch)-Good. Funny.
24. Hard Candy.-Quite riveting. Pretty good.
25. Planet Terror-(rewatch)-Awesome.
26. Shaun of the Dead-(rewatch)-Fried gold, one of my favourites.
27. The Ugly Truth-Don't take it seriously and it is funny and pretty cute. Made me horny.
28. Jacob's Ladder-Did he die?
29. Role Models-Pretty funny.
30. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince-Waste of 3 hours.
31. GI Joe-The Rise of the Cobra-Pretty damn good!
32. The Perfect Getaway-Very good. Very suspenseful.
33. Misery-Crazy film. A definite nail biter.
34. House Bunny-(rewatch)-Fun. Very cute clothes o_o
35. Down with Love-WTF? So weird, pretty lame.
36. Inglorious Basterds-Quite good! A lot of dialouge, bue eh, it's Tarantino. Gore and an awesome story made up for it.
37.The Strangers-Kind of boring, but creepy nonetheless.
38. Hairspray-(rewatchx48449494)-Honestly, one of the greatest movies ever. You can't stop the beat!
39. 9-So good, so cute.
40. Horrorfest Presents:Gravedancers-5/10
41. Horrofest Presents:Crazy Eights-2/10
42. Horrorfest Presents: Frontiers-Great, great French horror movie. They know how to do.
43. Horrorfest Presens: Lake Dead-6/10
44. Juno-(rewatch)-Good.
45. All About Steve-Twas alright.
46. The Wedding Singer-(rewatch)-An old favourite. One of Adam Sandler's best.
47. Billy Madison-(rewatch from long ago)-Not bad. Pretty funny in a retarded kind of way.
48. The Hot Chick-(rewatch)-6/10
49.No Country For Old Men-(rewatch)-Incredible movie. A definite favourite.
50. Girl, Interrupted-Very good movie. One of my favourites for the year.
51. Dazed and Confused-(rewatch)-One of the better stoner movies.
52. Ace Ventura-(rewatch)-Lol...it's not great, but idk. Not bad.
53. Horrorfest Presents: Unrest-I kept expecting this movie to get better, and it never did. 3/10
54. Dawn of the Dead-(rewatch)-One of my favourite and scariest zombie movies.
55. Burn After Reading-Very good. Very funny.
56. Zombieland(x2)-Up there with Shaun of the Dead. Epic zombie movie!
57. 27 Dresses-Major chick flick. 6/10
58. Dead Alive-(rewatch)-So fucking disgusting. I love it!!
59. Day of the Dead: the remake-Didn't even know there was a remake. The original was a lot better, still 6-7/10
60. Where the Wild Things Are-Not sure how much I liked this film. Very different than what I expected.
61. Night of the Living Dead(1990)-One of my favourites!
62. Midnight Movie-Too cliche' and then much too weird.
63. Cirque De' Freak:The Vampire's Assistant-Very,very cool movie. Original concept and everything.
64. The Prestige-Ahhhhhamazing!! Want to watch it again.
65. The Men Who Stare At Goats-Interesting more than anything. Pretty funny, too.
66. Mama Mia! (x 3)- I love love love this movie :D
67. Bedazzled-(rewatch)-Brendan Frasier is actually tolerable and it's pretty funny.
68. Anger Management-A lot funnier than I expected it to be.
69. Hot Fuzz-(rewatch)-Off the fucking chain :D

As for books...I am not doing so well anymore. I started on Dracula a few months ago, got bored, and have yet to find a new book. I'll go to the library this week, though >.<

1. Go Ask Alice
2. Choke
3. Night
4. No Country For Old Men
5. The Killing Joke
Reading: 1984

Really? It's already December 1st?! Gah...summer adventures seem like they were weeks ago. Fucking crazy, man ~_~ I need to get on getting that second job and buying Christmas gifts. I have a feeling it will be a very long time before I am able to move out of my mum's haus again. Fucking figures D:

Anyway...Leroy got back from Las Vegas last night and he has just been being his natural, old, sweet Leroy self. I hate how I keep second guessing this when I know I'm so in love with him and couldn't bear to be without him. 16 more days and this fucking hiatus of our's is over. I was hoping he would cave this entire time...maybe he will, maybe he won't. If he doesn't, than I will put up with being his cuddly friend until the 17th...then a nice dinner and haha...maybe roses? Idk. I'm going to make him earn me back. We're hanging out around 3:45 today-I'm really excited. I haven't seen him since Friday afternoon, so I am super excited :D

Amber and I rolled on Saturday, and it was pretty cool. Didn't realize that prices on tabs went up since I last bought x_x Ah well. Pretty excited to roll again with Devon, but I need to sell a lot of shit on ebay (and actually remember to mail the stuff out), work more at the theatre, and get a second job to afford gifts. Damn not knowing how to save money for a long amount of time. Damn needing retail therapy! GAH. Time to get ready...

( anyway, this cake is great )




This is Leroy and I if we ever fall victim to the zombie apocalypse.
Still in love. Still cute :D

Thanksgiving was alright lol.Woke up at Amber's haus and had to work until five. My brother Aaron and his common wife from Denver came down to visit, so we went to Ben's place and got drunk (I got too drunk for a bit there haha), smoked some, talked a lot, and played that Kings drinking game. Definitely not a hard liquor game...it was so made for beer and with good cause @__@
Was there for a couple of hours, had to force myself to eat so I didn't pass out and had to walk to a gas station (Aaron drove a bit of the way x_X. Not on any main streets) because I really needed an energy drink. I really like everything we talk about. It gets boring sometimes, but I don't know very many people more interesting and smart. I can't relate to them on everything and vice versa, but deep stuff gets out, and we laugh a lot, so it's good.
Leroy picked me up at 9:45...and he left about 45 minutes ago. Cried while he held me. Tried really hard not to kiss his perfect, fucking beautiful lips *droool* 23 more fucking days. Anyway, I really wish he stayed trhe night, but he is being stubborn and thinking with his stupid boy brain and not with his heart...he's not letting his gaurd down even though I can tell he wants to u___u;;.

Anyway...I am going over to his haus tomorrow at 10:30 and taking him to the airport at 1:30. I won't see him again until Tuesday, and that pains me hella and I will miss him like crazy, but it might be kind of good for me. Aaron, his wife Stacey, Ben, and Erinn(haha) and I will get together later tomorrow the afternoon, smoke some more, and do some fun sibling stuff lol :p

Happy Thanksgiving, dollies. Gut nacht.

LOVE!

Some home-made dinner and dessert. Sexy dancing. Maybe some Tequila or wine. Getting exxxtra kinky and romping until the sun comes up :D


That's what I would give, anyway. And get haha.

Halloween was pretty fun.  My cousin/old friend Sara is watching Molly for me, so I invited her to come party hopping (kind of lol) with Leroy and I at some of my brother's friends' homes.  I went from being a zombie pin-up girl to being an angel of death.  Do your serial killer research lol...women serial killers who were nurses and would inject their patients with poison or otherwise torture and kill them.  I looked hella cute, but still no fucking digital camera, so shotty phone pics aren't worth posting.  Leroy was some guy from Organization 13(Kingdom Hearts, I think) and Sara was Robin from Teen Titans.  She ended up meeting a girl Bat Man at the first house, so it was pretty cool. 

Crazy.  I haven't drank hard liquor in so long, but I was taking shots like a real champ, sometimes even without a chaser.  Leroy took care of drunk Kelda and Sara lol...and I really felt bad that he was the driver for us, because he was all stressed, and not being able to drink made it worse.  He's a good boy, really.  So, yea.  Quite drunk for the first time in a long time and no hang over :D

Last day at Spirt store was on Halloween, and well, I am impressed and quite happy with how long I have had so much money.  I don't want this trend to end!  I fucking hate the movie theatre even though I get to work with Leroy, so we're both looking for new jobs, and will keep a day at the movies simply for the free movie benefits. 

Tomorrow I have an ortho appointment, dying my hair a new blonde, seeing Leroy of course, homework, cleaning, and hopefully some getting stoned.  Also, I have a little cold D:

BTW pap smears are the most awkward and uncomforatble things EVAR.  God...only one person should be sticking their finger, or anything else for that matter, inside of me and that is my Leroy D:  Everytime I think about it, it makes my vagina feel so weird >_<

Today I had my last shift at the Spirit store until next Friday.  I wore the pin-up girl costume I bought for about 30 % off with my zombie make up and (literally) killer heels.  I looked all cute with my curly blonde hair and such...morning was hectic, lots of lines at the fitting rooms...blah blah blah.  So, there is this white trash-esqu fat, ugly lady with her two fat sons. BIIIIII_AAAAAAATCH!!!

Me: There aren't any dressing rooms open, but the person in #2 is ready to leave, so I can take your costume out for you, so you can get ready to go in.
Lady: *stands there.  not responding.  not even looking at me.  trying not to laugh*
Me:  Uh..... *looking like a total retard.  tries to reach for her kid's costume bag*
Kid: *stares at me for like, 30 seconds*
Me: Ugh.  *takes costume from him, walks behind desk*
Lady: Did anybody else get that?  All I heard was "blah blah blah blah"  *laughs*

I go back to the lady-she still isn't looking at me,so I just toss the costume on her arms.
Lady:  What am I supposed to do?  Throw is back at her?

She gets my manager, Mitch who pulls me aside "Kelda, sweetie, blah blah blah."  He takes me to apologize to her, and I am all professional and she is saying how it would be more believable if I weren't rolling my eyes-I wasn't.  I tell her I wouldn't apologize if I didn't mean it and she says "Well, you probably also want to keep your job for the next weekend."  Mitch is just like "Hey, hey,alright.  She came to apologize to you.  She keeps going on, so I just cross my arms and look away...pretty much acting like she thought I would, so I did, and I just walk away.  Why are people like this?  I am sure she gets those BIg Macs she eats everyday spit in every single time she goes through the fucking drive-thru.  People like that need to be wiped from the Earth in all of their fat, ugly, bitter, rude sweat pants-wearing disgutsting-ness.

He has me.  I have him.  I am a lucky fucking girl who is loved immensely by an amazing fucking boy.



One day I will marry him in a lavish, barefoot wedding in a pink, sparkly dress beside the dark ocean or England's hills. 
Forever?  And ever.

Where the Wild Things Are at 4:10 with my wild thang >:D

GAH  I am so fucking tired of insecure, jealous, immature little bitches.  I face these people on a daily basis, but at the movie theatre, it is only really bad with one of the girls I work with.  She's fat and ugly and desperately tries to get all of the guys to fuck her, so when they talk to me or any other girl, she throws a fit.  She talks to two other girl employees-the ones that are the least threatening.  She is like, best friends with the pregnant ghetto concession manager Amanda, who is just as immature as she is.  Other than that, the biggest problem I have with dumb ass girls like that are the customers.  And usually I can just laugh it off, I mean why not?

Yes.  I am blonde. Yes.  I am cute and pretty and skinny and know how to fucking dress and and almost always look good.  Ya know what?  Not my problem that more than half of New Mexico thinks that being put together is wearing an ill-fitted tank top and some nasty sweat pants with nasty flipflops.  Not my fauls that so many people are obese and think that they can still pull off clothes three sizes too small. I look the way I do because I care about how I present myself and applaud others who do the same, if they keep their fucking low self-esteem in check.

The girls at my new job (The Spirit Halloween Store; first offical day today) are so fucking catty and insecure and just straight up rude and immature.  One girl (another pretty blonde with poor choice in footwear) said hi to me on my own.  Another one did because my sketchy manager Lauren introduced us.  Another girl however, gave me the nastiest look when I walked by the fitting room table (I tried to smile) and just kept staring at me as she walked away.  I was like "wtf?  What just happened here?"  Had the same sort of problem when I came for my orientation and interview last week and  the week before.

I'm not over-blowing my ego, by any means.  I have observed this for years and there is no other reason why girls act this way.  NONE.  I see girls do it to my sister, some of the other girls I work with, and other attractive customer service women (usually when she is ringing up a girl and her boyfriend.)  People, seriously.  Confidence isn't that hard to gain if you actually put some time and effort into caring and looking good.  Fuck youand your stupid insecurities.  Get over it and stop being so pathetic.  A lot of the times, you're pretty too, but you're not going to be the only good-looking girl walking around.  Back the fuck off and grow the fuck up.

/RANT

Well, I have been living with mum, my step-dad,and sister for like...the past two weeks, I think.  It's interesting.  Definitely has its own cons and pros.  Obviously a pro is not having to pay rent or for groceries so I can save money to move out next January and not be such a broke-ass motha' fucka'.  Cons are the fact that I have to ask permission to do a lot.  Like, I have to make sure that I don't assume Leroy can come over whenever I want him too.  He can't spend the night, so on our sleep-over nights we spend the night at his haus where we are never sure if his sister is going to be a bitch or not.   My step-father is never in the same mood every time I see him and I get told how and when and where to eat >_>  Can't get high in the haus (it's been too long, period) and can't smoke inside even if I wanted to.
But, this week has been good.  Got in trouble at work.  Got a new job at the Spirit Halloween store and my first official day is tomorrow, I think.  The manager is kind of air-y so I will have to call her again tomorrow. 
I am waiting for Leroy to get off of work at 5:00 and later we are going to the corn field maze.  It's right next to the river, so maybe some chilly night nature sex is in store.  I so hope so >:3
Did some light shopping yesterday. New dress.  Dead Alive (must-see gory gory zombie movie), and a Zombie Survival poster.  It's so funny that people are just now jumping on the zombie band wagon.  I bought my "I heart zombies" shirts and necklace like, five years ago and people were like "wtf?  Zombie survival guide?  That's so stupid..."  And now everyone is getting prepared.  Good to know who truly started it hahaha :p
Speaking of zombies...Zombieland is great.  Like, up there with Shaun of the Dead good. I'm tired.  And need to make cookies for Leroy and the Mexican maintenance guy at work who saved my keys.  Aww...the power of Mexican magic :D  Gotta love it

Fall time!  Idk...to me, it;s bittersweet.  I fucking hate the cold, but there is so much greatness that Autumn has to offer.  Like...Halloween, corn field mazes and apple orchards (great Fall events I have planned with teh boy!), the amazing fucking leaves, and just...I guess you have to be a writer to get it (which...most of you), but Fall has this like, inspirational, creative, kind of nostalgic-esque feel to it.  It's so crisp and beautiful and it just makes me feel cold.  The mornings and the evenings make me fucking cold, but...that Autumn air....there is something to it.  Lol.  I sound lame :p  Anyway, due to the falling out between Amber and I, the fact that I am fucking broke, and the fact that my mum is great, I am moving back in with her for the rest of the semester.  Not my first choice, but since she was the one that was going to have to pay most of my apartment fees anyway, I figure this is a lot more fair and reasonable.  I move next week, I think.  The shitty thing is, is that it's like, 30 minutes from my schule (I already leave like, 30 mins before a class), and my step dad doesn't like cats, so I have to find a good, temporary place for Molly...like with my brother D:  So gay!  Leroy was so close to getting me a kitten for our six months, and then bam!  Not allowed :[  Well, we've been doing computer shit for a bit now.  I want to eat and snuggle with him...and then he can eat me or something >:p 



Peace and parks, people :D

Today was a fine day, a fine day indeed! Actually, it was a pretty fucking awesome day.  If we forget about the part with that little bird...Anyway...I can't wait for tomorrow, either.  Peace and Parks ♥

GAHHHH!!!  My heart is going crazy :D
Very soon.  Very, very soon I will be in Leroy's arms once again where I belong.
I wasn't too strong for him,I had a lot of weak points, but I honestly did better than I thought I would.
My heart is trying to beat itself out of my chest so it can go and dance with his.
Better start getting ready.  I have my new flower dress on,and I want to look extra pretty for him :3
Sorry if the mushiness bothers you,but,uh...mah Mushie is the other half of my heart...so, yea:D
♥♥

Find out where my mer-gina was and have amazing mermaid/human sex with Leroy.  With my pretty pink fin.  Maybe or maybe not a little yellow shell bikini top or something.  Swimming in the sea all day with my merman by my side.  Hang out in an octopus's garden in the shade.  Surrounded by friendly mermaids and sea creatures who didn't know of rude, self-centered, petty behaviour.  And nobody would fry and eat me because, well, you should never eat fried mermaids.  Not ever. 
( pixxx )

Weird, yea.  I feel weird.  Honestly, I feel like such shit.  I thought this day would be easier since I know for sure Leroy is coming back home to me early tomorrow morning, but he hasn't been allowed to text me while he fishes with his family for most of the day.  I need to hear his voice.  I feel fucking incomplete.  And my best friend is a self-centered, apathetic bitch who could care less about who she hurts and how bad.  I feel more guilty than she does, and it's just all adding up to be too much and I fucking hate it.  I'm so stressed about other shit, too.  I just know that can I push past all of this once Leroy gets back.  I can't believe he has to start schule so soon.  I can't believe how long I have gone without talking to him.  What does this have to do with being a mermaid?  Well, it's like wanting to be a cat.  No worries.  Swim or sleep all day in the beautifiul ocean.  I could have Leroy all to myself.  Everybody else would learn to be better people, as would I.  I don't know what to do with myself.  I pray this night speeds by. 

But, burnt and waiting and everything I could have wanted to say is already solved, or something.  Leroy still makes me a very happy little teh baby caterpillar princess!!  As does mary jane ;]

Taking Woodstock comes out the 28th :D  I so can't wait!  I hope it's awesome enough to do the real Woodstock justice.  Peace and Parks everyone :D

Work sucks.  Unexpected doctor bills suck.  But, that can be fixed :]  The majority of life right now does not suck.  Not at fucking all :D

The BFF and I.  Her first time rolling, about our second or third pill later :p  Attempting to wink XD.

The sister and I.  Second or third pill later.  Chiling with the dead people in the Memorial Park.

Still very happy and very in love with my Leroy-kins ♥  I am a daisy and he is my sunshine ♥  He just finished cleaning out my closet for me.  He's amazing.  My romantic prince, and my dirty sex machine >XD.

.... I found a new home, as well.

May the Force be with you all!! ♥ 

Got back from Vegas on Saturday evening, by the by.
Vegas:
Tons of perverts.  Hit on all of the time by every kind of man.  No shame.  No fear!  Until we whipped out the bitch!
Tons of shopping :D  Tis like, my new cocaine lol.  3 new dresses, new heels, 2 new platform wedges, new pink Converse low-tops, new purse, Hello Kitty tablespoons, 3 new rings, 2 new bracelets, positive scent inhaler-thingy, presents for Pickle's birthday and Leroy.
Rode the scariest ride EVER atop the Stratosphere.  Serena cried, I kept my eyes closed the entire fucking time.
Tried out an oxygen bar to get rid of the anxiety the ride made us feel.  So awesome :D
Swam every day.  Chlorine totally killed my hair.  Blonde lovely locks turned plastic, burnt Barbie hair D:
Obtained an alcoholic drink from a drunk man I was making fun of, and 2 bottles of wine from our Consier guy.
Took pictures with Chip n Dale's strippers.
Picture post soon.
This week:
Spent the night with Leroy,  Then he spent the night with me.
We made a new record for ourselves hehehehe >D.
His car's alternator broke.  Had to push it off the road to a parking lot >.<
Haven't seen him since yesterday afternoon D:
Saw Angels and Demons with brother Ben and Serena yesterday.  Twas alright.
Went to hookah lounge with Ben last nigh. Very great, deep talks.  Fun it was, but the people sucked. 
Decided not to move to Denver, mostly on account of me not being able to part from Leroy.  I hope this decision wasn't made in vain, I am sure he is so worth it though.
CUT MY HAIR!! SUPER SHORT, A-LINE CUT!  AHHHH, but I learned to like it, Leroy loves it, most people think it's cute/sexy, so yay ^^
Today:
Helped Ben pick out some nice, new clothes with Serena.
Got treated to lunch by him.
Worked.  Termniator Special Premiere + midnight showings=hectic-ness and rude customers for Kelda D<  JUST BECAUSE YOU WORKED ON A MOVIE THAT CHRISTIAN BALE WAS IN DOESN"T MEAN YOU'RE ANYWHERE AS GREAT AS HE IS SO GTF OVER YOURSELF!
Nicholas was hilarious and perverted as always.
Jonathan is just, ugh.  I hate fake, insecure people.  I can't believe I liked him so much at one (or two) points.
Obtained Terminator memorbilia from Travis.  Giant fucking standee and a poster :D
Loves this song!!  
Saw a girl I was best friends with in first and second grade O.O
Tomorrow:
Looking for a new job.
Seeing Leroy.
Cleaing room.
Seeing Leroy. ♥♥♥♥♥

Gut nacht!

Non-stop is the leering nd the comments nd the following nd damn! These people never stop u.u When the next person hits on me back home, I am going to be so annoyed already, I will just go zero to bitch.. I've already started lol. Vegas has been fun though! Nd I'll reply to comments when I get home. Tomorrow we'll do a lot more I think. The most touristy thing we did today was go on the Big Shot ride at the Stratosphere-SCARIEST SHIT EVER. I kept my eyes closed the whole time nd Serena cried lol. TEh babies u.u SO, basically just shopping, eating, swimming nd trying to get alcohol lol, but still a lot of fun. I do miss my Leroy though. Well, I should get back to texting him lol :p Pictures when I return home! GUt nacht.

In seven more hours, mum, Serena, my step dad Steve, nd I should be in Las Vegas :D I'm so excited! Leroy stayed the night last night nd I had an incredible time. I hope we feel this h way forever-truly genuine nd happy. The man after my own heart <3 I'm listening to Tool on my CD player-I can't believe how long it has been since I've listened to them-let alone their Aenima CD. SO amazing, I used to be so in love with this band. Well, time to save batteries. Bye everybody-behave nd ave fun! :D